Archive for April, 2007

In Homage to Spring

admin April 29th, 2007

Today, I open.
Today is a spring day
Full of Iris and lily, lilac and jasmine,
Today is a day of warm sun
And cool breezes.
Today I feel the pulsating movement of people,
They zoom by - top down, roar, heat and wind,
And just the right amount of danger, or
Walking slowly, bathe in the day’s caress.
They lounge and nap, or eat and talk.
Parents and children trade kicks at a rubber ball,
Dogs search the trees for squirrels, and
Chirping birds chatter their latest gossip.
No longer are we walking dead of winter.
No longer curled and knotted, we stretch, we sigh,
We indulge and celebrate, we squeeze out the drops.
In the front garden, some early blooms have withered,
And some about to burst open.
Later will be the lavender and the gardenia,
Later will be the heat lovers, portents of true summer,
But the purple rose, I have been watching her.
It is past time for the roses.
The others already an immodest orgy of blooms,
She waits. I have snipped them back,
And buried my face in their blooms of red and yellow,
But she waits. I think
She was waiting for this day, this first true spring day.
The others carrying still, some remembrance of last season.
I too have been waiting.
Not ready to fully stretch, to groan, to scratch, to commit,
To indulge in this overindulgent feast, but
Today, I smelled the sweet fragrance of her first blossom,
Almost black, it was, and the scent to match,
Like a secret rendezvous with a beautiful stranger.
Today, among the rhythm of people,
Bathed in scent and light green leaves,
Among the bird calls and the trees’ rusting,
I wait no longer. I open my bloom, I emerge
Like her, I have waited, but I must live this day.
This day of rebirth, all the earth opens.
I open also, this day.

Now I know

admin April 29th, 2007

At least I know about the pregnancy. I’m not pregnant, I just was mysteriously a week late. In the grand scheme of things this is probably a positive development, but my husband has to listen to me coo over every little chubby cheeked babe I see. (Who is this woman I have become? I do not recognize her.) It is nice that he likes them too. That will probably come in handy… It also seems that springtime brings not only nice weather, flowers, and baby chicks, but pregnancy announcements too. In the last week, I have received announcements of one birth and three pregnancies. I don’t even have a good reason to be jealous, but I seem to be that way anyway.

In other news, to celebrate our continued status as just a couple (and not prospective parents) my husband and I have decided to take a nice little vacation. Being that this vacation will coincide nicely our family planning time line, I have decided that this would make a nice procreation trip. The thing is though, I want to be able to drink wine and coffee and eat unprocessed cheese without having to worry about the pregnancy consequences. So I am left with a question. How do I know when I should worry about this? If I eat cheese and drink wine two weeks after conception, is this risky behavior? One week? Three days? I won’t even know if I am pregnant until a week out. How do people on these so called “procreation trips” handle these issues? Do they just not indulge? If there is a time to indulge, I would think that the time would be on the trip. Why don’t they have handbooks for this? Or at least why don’t I have one?

Happy Woman Professor Day (I missed it)

admin April 23rd, 2007

I wrote this a while ago, and thought I lost it, but no, apparently I just don’t know how to use my interface. More original blogging to come shortly…

So here I am writing all about how it is so hard to find things to read about the rosy side of professoring (Spell check tells me this is not a word, but I say it is) , completely oblivious to the Happy Woman Professor Day posts that celebrated this exact topic only a few weeks ago (Valentines Day, that is). I am at the moment trying to compile a nice list of links t to all of these celebratory sites. I wish every profession had a “Happy Day” so that anyone interested in a certain path could find out the good parts from people who really do enjoy their jobs. I don’t really think we need a universal “Shitty Day” though. Not that it’s not useful, but it seems that the shitty parts are those that smack us in the face and make us want to write about them.